A Thousand Thoughts

I’ve had my day completely derailed and dominated by an optometrist appointment gone wrong, because they simply didn’t listen to what I said I needed. I mean, the actual point of the glasses. On the verge of meltdown, I left the store and told them they would need to ring me to sort it out. Despite being utterly exhausted by this, I went back to finish it off later today, because I just needed it done.

I felt like there was an interesting element at play, part of the great unmasking. I just couldn’t tolerate all the overload. I was more aware of it and more accepting of my difficulty with it rather than turning on myself. I used loop ear plugs while I was in there. I knew I couldn’t resolve the issue the first time round and I was getting panicked so I knew I just needed to get to my car and hyperventilate in there. That’s okay. The situation sucked, I didn’t.

I’m tired of everything being so hard.

Do better, just do better. This isn’t even *just* about disability. It’s about how little people pay attention to others in front of them, even when they’re being paid to.